The Middle Ground

The middle is very unique place to be. You can relate to everyone and yet you can never truly relate to anyone. The reason for this middle ground talk is, I was bored today and took this survey.

http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

My Results:
Your Aspie score: 95 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 96 of 200
You are both Aspie and neurotypical

Since I haven't taken any psychology class, I had no clue what these terms meant before I took the quiz. After the quiz I decided to look the terms up on Wiki.

Neurotypical -- Usually abbreviated NT. Refers to a person who is not on the autistic spectrum, although the technical meaning of the word is a bit ambiguous.

Aspie -- A short-hand way to refer to a person with Asperger syndrome. First used and then made popular by Asperger syndrome author Liane Holliday Willey. Some people use it to refer to those on the whole autism spectrum rather than just those with Asperger's, even though there are differences between AS and other types of autism, such as language delays. There is controversy about whether or not the differences between autism and AS are significant enough to be considered separate conditions. Autistic people tend to appreciate mathematics, science, science fiction, music, and computers, so these are common areas of interest in the autistic culture. There is also a focus on anthropology, based on the common autistic experience of living among beings (non-autistic humans) that have radically unfamiliar thought patterns and a correspondingly strange culture. Many autistic people describe a feeling that they are aliens or that they understand what an alien must feel like.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Autistic_culture

The results show that I am both Aspie and Neurotypical. The problem with this is that Aspie people and Neurotypical people don't understand each other. An example of this is I am very into playing and watching sports. People who like sports tend to be very social and so I am very social at times. Then I go through periods were I just feel very antisocial and become very quiet. This tends to scare the social people. So, groups of people that one time were your friends, now just push you away. In the end you find the middle to be a very lonely place.


Music: Jimmy Eat World-The Middle

A True Rock Star

http://music.guardian.co.uk/rock/story/0,,1949789,00.html#article_continue

Its insane that even when he was on his death bed (technically died twice). He was still just listening to the music of the other heart monitors.

"Everyone's heart machines are going at a different rate," he smiles, "you've got all these weird poly rhythms." He knows it sounds stupid, but there he was, on the brink of death, "listening to this music".

The other insane thing that I found out is that Jason Pierce doesn't know how to read or write music. For a person that is thought by many critics to be competing with radiohead to push musics boundaries. This is like saying Einstein didn't know basic algebra. Even I know how to read music and have even written a little music. My music talents are very limited since I could never understand the theory's and chords that are the next level in music. For Jason to create such complex music without knowing these basics, just shows that music is a special phenom that you are born with and can not be taught.

Music: Pinback

Christmas Parties Are Lame

Family Christmas parties are always fun when your the only one under 40.







Music:Spiritualized

Trouble with dreams

First off I accidentally misspelled beulah in my previous post.

Last night I had the weirdest dream. I was at a lolla type of music fest. My friends some how convinced me to see HIM. I don't think they are a screamo/hardcore band ,but in my dream they were. While I was listening to them I was surrounded by a tall crowd that started moshing. Then out of nowhere HIM covered Badly Drawn Boy's song "Nothing Gonna Change Your Mind". I was like WTF and then tried to push my way up to were my friend was. When I tapped him on shoulder and the person turned around it wasn't my friend. That's when my dad woke me up and yelled, "Its 3 o'clock get up and get ready for work". Its dreams like this that makes me happy that I don't remember 90% of my dreams.

I spent the rest of the day running errands and painting, until 1am when I got home.

My Current Top Ten Bands

Very happy finals over.


1.The Flaming Lips
2.Elliott Smith
3.Spiritualized
4.Matt Pond Pa
5.Stars
6.Shout Out Louds
7.Death Cab For Cutie
8.Sparklehorse
9.Ambulance Ltd
10.Muse

Close Calls:
The Beatles
Radiohead
Sigur Ros
Pinback
Bealuh
Starlight Mints
The Age Of Rockets
The Notwist
Weezer

One more day..........

Last final is tommrow.(Or should I say later today)
Which means I need to pull off a few miracles and I'll be done with my first semester.
This semester was quite easy as I expected. Unfortunately I expect next semester to be nightmare.
I'm mad there is no snow for snowboarding currently.
I'm dissappointed that there is no good shows to go to over break, but look forward to seeing my friends out in Batavia/Geneva/Montgomery over break.
Still horribly scared of my two majors and family still fighting ,but other than that life is good....



Music: Spiritualized and mix in a little Air lately.